Play? or anything he said?
玩？或他说的任何事情？
Never supposed he talked with me so long tonight. He talked so much which make me believe again he is really that kind of man. Yes, he is a serious businessman who want a woman bearing a baby for him, who will not get involved with his business. But what I want is equal. I couldn't bear him put the punishment to his ex-wife to me. Love me with total love and soul, or to leave. That's my choice. That's also why I ask for his card or passport which made his last determination of leaving. He do care much about me otherwise he wouldn't stay for so long with his hurt eyes. But he do insist his doing so much which I couldn't accept at all. I will not betray my heart any time again. I won't love him just because he is rich. And this time, I found that I really don't care about money so much. For what I'm pain for is that his accompany was so nice and peaceful, but I can never get our souls together for different way of thinking, for financial reasons, actually I suppose the main reason is for his bad experience before. That's why Manager LI always told me not to find a man divorced to love. I understand so much now. Too much experiecne, so too much keep in distance. He gave me the choices, to love him without questions or leave. I gave him mine, to show something or go. I didn't give up my heart at the last time. He goes, so let him go. I'm here living with my own heart where God lives.
从未设想他会在今夜和我说这么长的时间。他说的是那么多，以致我再一次相信他确实是那种男人。是的，他是一位严肃的商人，打算让女人为他怀孩子，但他又并不打算让她介入他的生意。但我需要的却是平等。我无法忍受他把对其前妻的惩罚强加于我的头上。爱我，就用你的所有的爱和灵魂，否则，走开。那是我的选择。那也是为什么我要他的身份证或护照，而他也因此最终决定离开。他确实是在意我的，否则他不会在眼睛受伤的情况下还停留那么长时间。但是他坚定地坚持他的做法而我却全然不能接受。我再也不会背叛自己的心了。我不爱他正因为他的富有。而此次，我发现我确实真的并不怎么在意财富。让我痛心的是他的陪伴是如此的美好和平和，而我却不能让我们的灵魂在思维方式有着差异、经济因素以及我想主要的原因是他的残破的既往经验影响的情况下走到一起。这也正是李经理一直告诫我不要找一个离婚男人去爱的原因。现在我明白了许多。太丰富的经验会导致太多的保留而总是产生距离。他给了我选择：毫无疑问地爱他，活着离开。我也给他出了我的选择题：表现出点什么或者走开。最终我不会放弃自己的心。他走了，那就让他走吧。我与自己的心生活在一起，与上帝同在。
God bless him. It's good to have this final talk, I can at least make sure that he is not a liar.I can finally understand him a bit at last. And I found now why I'm so sure about his words before.Thinking sometimes could ruin something too. It can bring things real into unreal, and then mix-up the two. I should remember there must be some reason for me to believe or not even I don't know that since I'm suspect in nature. He means as seriously as he said. Just bad tempered and stubborned on his mind. This time, I found that I'm not really so obedient even in front of a real powered man. That's my nature. I will not submit myself to anyone even he is a real king. That's a bit different from my imagination. What kind of woman I want to be? I have such a wonderful chance to be that kind of happy woman who need only to submit to her husband. Why I give up?
上帝保佑他。有这最后的谈话真好。我可以最终确定他并不是一个撒谎的家伙。我最终对他还是理解了。而且，我现在发现我为什么在考虑某些时候会破坏某些事情的前提下还是如此信服他以前的话。这可以把事情由真实带入虚假，而且最终真假混淆。我必须牢记一定有某些原因使我坚信或怀疑，尽管由于我猜疑的天性使我无法确知那到底是什么。正如他说的一样，他确实是非常严肃认真的。顽劣的脾气和顽固的头脑在他身上共存。而此次，我发现自己并不是那么恭顺，尽管面对的是一个确实很强大的男人。那也是我的天性，我不会向任何人投降，哪怕面对的是一个真实的国王。这与我一直的想像略有区别，我到底要成为什么样的女人？我曾经拥有一个如此美妙的机会来成为那种幸福的女人，唯一需要的是向自己的丈夫缴械。为什么我要放弃？
I'm proud I'm clever, but also felt stupid to be a too-clever woman. I hate to that but I can't help. And I'm really stupid in acting myself~!
我是骄傲的，我也是聪明的，但过于聪明的女人同时也让人感到愚蠢。我也恼恨这一点，但我无法改变什么。而在做好我自己方面我还真的很笨拙……

Better to find out first what man I am looking for. There is no much time to waste. I'd better to think it over. Let's see. Yes, I got offline first today. But felt so hurt in my heart. Let's see how God will guide us. God bless all of us~!

最好首先发现我到底要找的是什么样的男人。没有太多的时间可以浪费。我最好仔细思考。让我想想，对，我今天第一次离开了网络。但我感到如此地伤心。让我们看一看，上帝是怎么指引我们的。上帝保佑我们……